fun with procrastination

i haven't done any blogging this week so far because i just haven't felt like it. on sunday we did go to the pumpkin patch at schramm's, but it just wasn't a good time to go for a number of reasons, one of them being that it was crazy hot and sunny and just didn't set the right mood for autumn pumpkin picking. i thought it would be cute to put erik in orange for the occasion, but he got rather lost among the pumpkins.


he enjoyed testing out the pumpkins by sitting on them.

and he especially liked looking at the (stinky) little piggies.

we went into the market too, but didn't buy anything. not even a little pumpkin.

the rest of the week has been stressful/unpleasant for the most part. i think i had my first ever full blown panic attack on monday at the thought of my comps. i wrote up my abstract on tuesday, which is due next week. i think it's ok. i'm not crazy about it, but it's a start. i have about 3 weeks to complete my written proposal, and i'm pissing it away like i usually do. i can never do anything without a healthy dose of procrastination. i had my midterm in my stem cells class yesterday, so i spent a good bit of time procrastinating/worrying about/studying for that. when we got to class, we found out it was going to be a take home exam and didn't have to turn it in until the morning. it turns out i could have probably done really well if i hadn't used my notes. i can't imagine that i didn't get an A on it, although i know i missed one question for sure. this afternoon i did manage to collect all of the papers that i have so far that i will need to write my proposal. i am sure there will be many more, but for now my stack is only about 6 inches high, and i have read almost all of them. i am sure i will be reading them all again very soon! so here i am procrastinating again. it seems to be a theme in my life. i can't help myself. i probably have ADD or ADHD or some kind of other crazy thing. who knows?